Well, a lot of it, and not my marbles. Well, not all of them.
I have been thinking a lot lately. Some of it has been about anxiety and avoidance behaviors. Some has been about where to go from here. More is about what I have accomplished this year and what I have left to accomplish–and there is so much on both fronts.
Accomplishments: I have: rebuilt my site using WordPress and to hire a web designer who made this place more user-friendly and sparkly; worked with major companies to spread the word about healthy eating; made new friends; and enjoyed new opportunities as I work with more families around the world who are fighting for health and fitness. I’ve hit my fifth year of blogging, had a national column and was a regular contributor to Parents Canada. I’m even working with a major publisher on a two-book deal not related to cooking. I have the best husband in the world and four, unique, terrific children I couldn’t be more proud of (even if they refuse to wear pants).
But still: I have put me on the back burner. While maintaining my current weight, I haven’t lost any weight for a long time. I’m not even close to goal–and it isn’t because of my recipes. Cue the back story montage music…
While I was a maintainer on Atkins 1972 for 3 years at my goal weight of 120 pounds and 5’5″ in the 80’s (I lost 40 pounds), once the 90’s rolled around, I fell face-first into the “must have food pyramid in my life” mantras and I became hungry. I became so hungry, in fact, that I starved and dieted (and later acquired a bingeing habit response to the deprivation) my way from a svelte 120 and a size six to 350 pounds and a men’s size 5x within 10 years (having 4 kids and a history of family obesity helped a little).Then, in a mere 8 months, from 2004-2005, I lost 115 pounds and kept it off with Atkins 2002. Unfortunately, in 2006, my lack of cooking efforts, coupled with the bingeing behavior, came back in full force, and I has lost the beautiful edge I once had. The health, the success, and the thrill of life were gone again within a year. I did make efforts here and there to lose 50 pounds at a time, but the weight typically came back because I couldn’t stick with it for long, due to my system damaged from years of wheat and sugar abuse and addiction.
Now, thanks to Dr. Julia Ross, I have been able to manage the bingeing behaviors through the judicious use of amino acids and supplements, coupled with lower glycemic load/ketogenic/low-carb (all the same thing) eating. My desire for carbohydrates have largely abated. And while I haven’t always been good, I have maintained (albeit an unhealthy weight) for the last year. I learned how to really cook for the first time in my life in 2007. Now I’m ready for more.
Between August 26 2012, at 6:42 and midnight, December 31 of this year, I am making this about me! I am reveling in the selfish (in a good way), and I’m going to love it (even when it is hard and it sucks, because it will).
I lost me somewhere over the last few years while doing my best for others, and I’m going to get me back by doing my best for me. I owe this to my family and my friends, and to you, but most of all, I owe this to me! I love my cooking. I love my ketogenic/low carb lifestyle, but old habits are hard to kick, so it’s time for some new ones.
They say that successful people plan specific goals and plans. What will yours be?
1. It starts with the date and the time of my new adventure: Sunday (tomorrow) at 6:42 pm. I pulled this number totally out of my brain at random, but when you think about it, why not? Even if you have a bad day Sunday, by Monday morning, you’ve already been on plan for 12 hours. You can’t beat that.
2. It ends on New Year’s Eve. Most of us start either on a Monday or New Year’s Day, and many fail. I am shaking it up.
3. I am modeling new, positive, behavior. I am not focused on being perfect and obsessing; I choose to be in a better place on the 31st of December so I can ring in the new year with a positive outlook of and not with regret that I should have been better.
4. I am picking a weight loss goal of 100 pounds, but who knows if I’ll even get there. The point for me is to pick a goal and shoot for the stars! What’s the worse that can happen: You fall short of the stars but you end up with a thinner Uranus.
Monday Weigh Ins
1. Mondays keeps me honest on the weekends when schedules fly out the window and take out food becomes so easy.
2. It’s a renewed start to the week. What can I learn from this weigh-in that I can apply to the coming week? Do I need to move it more? Shake it less? Look at my journals for determining factors like new foods introduced, sweeteners or possible food intolerance?
3. Over and done with for the week is what a Monday weigh-in signals. It’s time to make new strides and new footholds on health and stop worrying about the scale.
4. My TOPS group weighs on a Monday, so it’s convenient. More on TOPS below.
1. Weighing in once a week on an appointed day keeps me from obsessing about the numbers on a daily (sometimes twice-daily basis). Weight can fluctuate up to 8 pounds per day due to water weight.
2. I try harder when I don’t have daily data in front of me. I want to arrive at my weekly support group with a loss, and without my scale, how will I know? Once-weekly information forces the right actions for the right reasons, because I’m taking the right actions. Sure, there won’t be a loss at the end of every week, but you know what? Life isn’t perfect and mini maintenance periods (stalls) happen.
3. Weekly numbers tend to show an ongoing tend. Daily weigh-ins show fluctuations, some of which are mood killers that might convince me to eat off-plan, because why not, I gained from yesterday anyway. Why do that to myself when I’m making forward progress?
4. My TOPS group weighs weekly. More on support below.
1. I will do this to keep accountable. A nibble of this and a lick of that still add up, so it’s important to man (or woman) up and write it down, the good the bad and (sometimes) the ugly.
2. I will collect data. Without information, I don’t know if a particularly hungry day had to do with the amount or quality of carbohydrates/fats/proteins I ate. And since I’m sticking to a roughly 60% calories from fat, 35% calories from protein and 5% calories from carbohydrates, I ant to make sure those numbers are dead on. I use Fitday but I’m researching other free programs as well.
3. To prevent carb or calorie creep. I eat to hunger. Some days I’ll eat more than others, but I want to make sure these are naturally occurring progressions and not boredom eating gone wild.
4. My TOPS group recommends keeping a journal. More below.
1. I’m going to elevate my heart rate 5 times per week for a minimum of 30 minutes as a time.
2. I’m going to record these efforts so that I can see how my life is changing day by day.
3. I am going to celebrate small strides, whether it’s parking farther away and walking to the store or just computing standing up as ways to bring better health and habits into my life.
1. Through this site, a place where over thousands of us meet daily to share stories, non-scale successes and the amazing things we’re eating.
2. Through my family, a major support group who want to see me be well and fit and healthy.
3. Through TOPS (Take Off Pounds Sensibly), a local nonprofit group that meets weekly for weigh-ins and has chapters all over the US and Canada. It only costs about $40 to join for the year. While the onus for programs is on the food pyramid and high-carb, low-fat dieting, they accept any weight loss adherents from any plans. They even accept weight loss surgery members. I go for the weekly weigh-ins and accountability and I stay for the fellowship/support. I rarely attend the food functions, but when I do, I will bring sugar-free, moderate fat offerings (these guys are low-fat, so no need to derail their calories for the day–baby steps).
1. I beat binge eating with supplements and amino acids, thanks to Dr. Julia Ross, but the mental and health work isn’t over the moment I open my mouth and eat eggs for breakfast. I am going to continue my supplements regimen for the recommended time span per her book and kick those carb cravings and anxiety issues to the curb.
2. Weight loss doesn’t make the world better. Stress still exists, neighbors can still be annoying, and your kids might not value getting good grades. These things will not derail me. Learn to cope with stress as a part of everyday life and know that health makes the insurmountable better than it would have been otherwise.
3. It’s about me this time.
The Mid-Year Resolution Challenge
A culmination (for me) of all the earlier, important portions wrapped up into one self mandate for health and fitness.
1. What can I do to get to New Years and celebrate the year and not spend an evening wallowing in regret and onion dip?
2. Why not start January 1st with a new outlook and new adventures?
3. Be proactive and not reactive. Putting in the work now yields the feel-good moment we deserve on December 31.
Want to join me? Simply check in with me, here, each Monday afternoon (or Tuesday if you’re a Feedburner follower or a Daily Digest subscriber) on my newest Mid-Year Resolution Thread and let me know how you’re doing.
I expect we’ll have some robust dialog, some laughs, and plenty of support. Along the way, I’ll share some of my menus, what’s working for me, how I’m getting my workouts in, and how we can get through these holidays forever! All posts are tagged “Mid-Year Resolution” and appear as a tab at the top of this site, so if you miss a week you can find us at any time you are ready to take your own first step to an even more fabulous you.
Are you ready? Let’s do this!